So, I've been feeling very weird regrading my sexuality lately. Like what am I? I'm attracted to men but I also like looking at women. But if I was going to chose a partner, I'd go with a man. Then I don't want to be in a relationship at all. I'm actually very happy being single but every once and a while I'm like, 'I wish I had someone here with me that I could cuddle with' but it's usually pretty fleeting. What I really want is to be with my friends. Like, if I was gonna chose between a boyfriend and my actual friends, I'd go with my friends in a second. And then there's the problem in finding myself completely unlovable from a romantic stand point. I can't see anyone loving me. I'm fat and old and gross and full of bad habits. But I know my friends love me and I'm cool with it. But back to the main point, I just don't know what I am. Am I asexual? What is it? It's just been bothering me for a while now and I had to vent.
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