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02 March 2014 @ 10:22 pm
So, I've been feeling very weird regrading my sexuality lately. Like what am I? I'm attracted to men but I also like looking at women. But if I was going to chose a partner, I'd go with a man. Then I don't want to be in a relationship at all. I'm actually very happy being single but every once and a while I'm like, 'I wish I had someone here with me that I could cuddle with' but it's usually pretty fleeting. What I really want is to be with my friends. Like, if I was gonna chose between a boyfriend and my actual friends, I'd go with my friends in a second. And then there's the problem in finding myself completely unlovable from a romantic stand point. I can't see anyone loving me. I'm fat and old and gross and full of bad habits. But I know my friends love me and I'm cool with it. But back to the main point, I just don't know what I am. Am I asexual? What is it? It's just been bothering me for a while now and I had to vent.
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Walking Dead
05 October 2013 @ 06:29 pm
So today I taste tested the two weird things I bought yesterday. First up the mango aloe drink. Not bad! It had a pretty strong mango flavour which I liked (I love mango) and the aloe wasn't bad. It was a little weird to drink something with chunks floating around in it. Kinda like orange juice with pulp. Which I don't like my orange juice with pulp but I don't really like orange juice. I would get it again. Maybe next time I'll try the straight up aloe juice.

Next is the beef jerky chocolate! This was actually not as weird as I thought. Okay, it was weird but not insanely so. It was more like a salted chocolate than anything. And I love salted chocolate so I liked this one. It did have a mild beef jerky flavour but nothing overwhelming. There were little pieces of jerky in it but they were really small so it wasn't like you had to chew it or anything. They were pretty crumbly too so they just sorted melted in you mouth. It was a weird experience but good too. I would buy it again given the chance.

So that was my taste test! They were both weird but not off-putting or anything. But I do have really weird taste so maybe it's just me. I'm gonna start keeping my eyes out for more weird things to taste and try. It was fun!
04 October 2013 @ 07:19 pm
Today I finally got to go out and do some shopping. It was only to the dollar store but there was some stuff I needed and wanted it to be as cheap as possible. And I bought some Halloween candy! I know, I know big deal, right? But this is the first time I've bought Halloween candy on my own. I still need to buy some more because I have a system for giving out candy. The more I like your costume the better candy you get. So like kids in Monster High, super hero or Adventure Time costumes get the good stuff. I know, I know that's pretty mean. But what can I say? I'm mean. I also went to Big Lots and found the collectors edition of Hot Fuzz for five dollars!! I was so happy! It's the first of the Cornetto trilogy that I've bought. Now I just need Shaun of the Dead and I just need to plain see The World's End. But still, what a bargain! I also found two weird things to eat that I couldn't pass up. A mango aloe drink and a beef jerky chocolate bar. I think I watch too many vlogs about people eating weird things. I wanted to try it myself. So there'll be a taste test tomorrow! Also I got another compliment on my hair. I'm so happy I coloured it. Yeah it's already showing much roots but that's okay. I just need to decide what colour to go next. And now I'm just chilling with Cabby and watching Night of the Living Dead. Cabby is sitting on his butt like a person, by the way. All and all, a good day. I love going out at this time of year.
22 June 2013 @ 06:38 pm
The other day my Grammy surprised me by saying, "I'd like to see that new Brad Pitt movie. I hate him but it looks good." So we planned on it and today we went to see World War Z. Minor spoilers ahoy. It was an okay movie. A little stupid but that was what I was expecting. I wouldn't pay to see it again but if it came on TV I'd tune in. There were a lot of people laughing at stupid things which was a little annoying because why? Is a zombie chattering their teeth really that funny? And even though I haven't read the book I know they're nothing alike. I did hear some excerpts when one of my besties was listening to it on tape. There were even parts where I felt a little sad. Like I really felt bad for the little Mexican kid. And I can certainly say that it was the most 'epic' zombie movie I've ever seen. It definitely had its "Oh, shit!" moments. It seemed really obvious that they were setting up for a sequel. It also didn't help my fear of flying. Besides crashing I now have to worry about zombies?! The flying scenes were the scariest parts for me. I can't say I'm too big of a fan of 'fast' zombies outside of Return of the Living Dead but it wasn't enough to turn me off the film. I think the worst part was the fact that while watching it I kept thinking "I wish I was watching The Walking Dead". Daryl Dixon > Gerry Whoever. Sorry Brad but you just don't rev my Harley like Norman. In conclusion, Brad Pitt had weird tiny ears.
03 May 2013 @ 08:11 pm
So, I've been reading all of the main Discworld novels from the beginning and I just finished Night Watch and I'm so close to Snuff that I'm all nervous again. I just don't know if I can bring myself to. Even though I love the books and I adore Watch novels (aw, heck. I love them all) it's just...so...hard!! If only there were more! But I guess I should just grit my teeth and read it. I haven't read The Long Earth yet or Dodger so I still have novels of his too read. It just breaks my heart to think of no more Discworld novels. Although his daughter will be taking over for him, it won't be quite the same. I'm getting far too emotional over the whole ordeal. And it kills me that I have no Discworld friends who would 'get' what I'm going through. Oh, waily waily waily!
22 April 2013 @ 10:01 pm
  For the past couple of days I've been able to get out and about and have a bit of a shopping spree. I got me a Scaris Rochelle and Ghoulia and a Catrine DeMew! I was so happy to find her again. And now I think I'd better stop buying Monster High dolls for a while. But I'm pretty happy with the collection I have now so I'm good. I also got me a plush LSP because oh my Glob do I love her. Now I just need a Finn and Jake. I also got a gift for my bestie because I saw something she needed to have. And I've been wanting to find a nice gift for her too. And I found John Dies at the End on dvd! Yay! *happy dance* I can't wait to watch it. I loved the book so much and hope the movie is just as good. I heard good things so here's hoping. I also got some necessities like a mouse, cat food and hair clippers. And the reason I got hair clippers? I got a mohawk! I'm so happy with it! It's pretty short right now but I'm going to grow it out some. And of course I'm going to go blue again. This time I'll buy a better dye so it'll really be blue. So things have been pretty good for me. Yeah.
03 February 2013 @ 07:07 pm
First off I woke up way too early but that was okay because I had to take a shower and go to the market. And while out shopping I found a Catrine DeMew, Rochelle and Jinafire. I was so tempted to get Catrine but I just couldn't do it. My mad money is set aside for a really important book. So I had to put her back. But it's a sewing book that I desperately want so I know I made the right choice. And since the book will help me with my shop I can hopefully find a Catrine later. Now if Skelita had been there I probably would have broke down crying.

And in big news, I cut off all my hair! I went from a little longer than shoulder length to a pixie cut. And I frigging love it! Not to sound too conceited (omg I sound like a BSC member!) but I look pretty cute! And I love how low maintenance it is. I also bleached and coloured it blue so when I was washing the bleach out of my hair it took no time at all and I was practically singing! But unfortunately the blue came out really dark so it isn't a big difference from my natural hair colour. If it doesn't fade into something nicer I may give it another shot.

So now I'm at home waiting for my colour to set, full of pizza and watching 'The Walking Dead' marathon. So lets hope I dream of Daryl Dixon tonight rather than colouring books I can't have. All and all a good day.
06 December 2012 @ 08:15 pm
  I just don't know what's wrong with me lately. Everyday I just feel terrible. I just want to curl up and cry and cry. Everything is just going so bad. The amount of shit in my life is maddening. I'm just so tired of all the stupid people in my life. Why is everyone I love and care about so far away? I just want to be with the people I love and not have to deal with the morons I have the bad luck of seeing everyday. And of course it being the holidays never helps. Everyone is out doing stuff and enjoying themselves and making plans and I can't do any of that. I don't know. I've just been feeling awful and wish I had someone to talk to.
03 November 2012 @ 06:57 pm
  So, today I finally got to see Silent Hill Revelation. And well...yeah. It was pretty dumb. But I still enjoyed the fuck out of it even while I was facepalming over it. And it's hard to get over the fact that they totally ruined poor Vincent. That hit harder than I thought it would and I was expecting it. And Vincent is my favorite character from the games so it was total wtf. And small nitpick but Vincent (from the game) does in fact have a last name. And it's Smith, not Cooper. God, why do I even know that?

  And another plus is I found a C.A. Cupid today! I was so happy to find her. There were quite a few at the store too. I don't know why I go around buying more Monster High dolls when I have no room for them. But what can I say? I'm addicted. I also picked up two shirts while thrifting. There was a cute Japanese picture book of Thumbelina that I kind of wanted but no. I really need to stop buying crazy crap. I don't even need anymore clothes but I can't help buying shirts. I have a million shirts and so few bottoms. Then I headed for the library to pick up John Dies at the End and a couple of episodes of MST. I really hope they get This Book is Full of Spiders soon. I enjoyed the Hell out of JDatE so I'm really looking forward to the next book. And as I've posted before I'm putting off reading Snuff. It was a busy day but I still didn't get to do everything I was supposed to due to stupid family drama. I can't wait to get away from all that bullshit.
21 September 2012 @ 05:55 pm
I know it seems like all I do is complain but well...there's a lot of shitty aspects of my life. So today's complaint is brought to you by the letter 'A' for asshole. As in my very sweet niece who I'm very close to is seeing a complete and utter asshole. I don't know what she sees in this guy. He's so fucking condescending it gives me a nosebleed. He acts like everyone is below him. If he doesn't personally approve of something, it's utter shit. And he doesn't approve of anything that doesn't have to do with him personally. Make him something to eat? It's not good enough. Do a little drawing? It's shit compared to his masterpieces. And she's going to be moving in with him and they've been looking at rings and shit. But the kicker is, she's cheating on him. She has another boyfriend (who's actually nice). It's like what? So I don't know why she's putting on a show that she's serious about this asshole when she's seeing someone on the side. Actually I do know why. It's because her mother was a complete shit stain of a person that never taught her kids anything other then fucking, drinking and drugs. God almighty get me out of this family.